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So yesterday i went and got my echo and heart monitor. I cant tell you how good it felt to take the heart monitor off. I hate them, i can never sleep with them on. They are so uncomfy.
Now i have to wait till 215 to go get my next two MRIs. One with contrast material which i hate because i hate ivs in my hand. Poo.
Then im basically done for the week with tests :)
and kelly clarkson is the only reason i didnt go crazy yesterday. and i love her.
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[05 Apr 2007|12:31pm] |
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My new medicine is making me feel nauseous and dizzy. But the doctor said that would be expected for the first couple days. It really sucks not driving, im starting to go crazy! I feel stuck. I hate it.
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[04 Apr 2007|05:29pm] |
So I have had a crazy week filled with so many emotions that its hard to handle.
Lets start with the bad stuff
I went to the nerologist on Monday. Got put on some meds and now have doctors appointments for the next week. I had my first one today which was an EEG. It made me have a seizure which i obviously hated. I may have to start getting them like once every month just to check my brain waves. It really sucks, i hate them
I got my licence taken away for 6 months. Its against the law for me to drive. It really sucks, because I am basically depending on other people to take me places now. Which i dont want to be a hassel to anyoone, but i guess im going to have too.
Strobe lights, cant be in places with them, hopefully that wont effect idol.
I have more tests this week into next week to determine the best treatment, i start the three drugs ive been given tommorow. Its all just really scary and im not going to lie im scared.
good news
Taylor was amazing. I got to go on his tourbus which was a surreal experience, it was so cool! I also was front row center which was awesome. It was so great to go and take my mind off of everything.
KELLY SINGLE NEVER AGAIN COMES OUT APRIL 11!!!!!!!!!!!! epppp
and shes doing a summer tour! :)
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[15 Mar 2007|01:45pm] |
I am so sorry for not posting alot! But so much has happened and i have been super busy. I think that i have the greatest friends in the world. :) Thats about all i can say for now.
I am going to the store with jess soon to get some stuff for my taylor and idol outfit. Although right now all my faves are gone and i have three contestants that i like basically the same. I wish alaina and sabrina were still on tho. My life would be easier.
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[26 Feb 2007|02:01pm] |
seriously its the life i choose, sometimes there comes such great things, but then i think what if i have a better time doing something else? Everything in life is a chance, and i know you are suppose to follow your heart, but what do you do when your heart isnt telling you either way.
Audition
or
the month of july
hm what to choose
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[22 Feb 2007|03:56pm] |
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wow, this week has been full of so many ups and downs i think im going to go crazy!
The downs, my papa is still unconscience. My older sister is flying down tommorow to see him. She is so lucky, My nana said that if he heard one of our voices he might wake up. Hopefully he will. I wish I could go, but i have school and my mom says i cant miss it.
Something very exciting however may be happening for my friends and i. I also may be flying out to LA on march 13....more to come about that when ican talk about it tho :)
Also congrats to susan and jess for winning the katharine contest! I am so proud of the Idol Junkies! We visited Cait and su last night, it was awesome to see them! I miss them so much!
Alaina...well she did her best on the show last night. All we can do is hope she makes it another week!
Also Mack is doing good! She still has 0 red blood cell count but they found some monocytes which is good! Please take the time to read this from her mother amy
well i am off to school in a snow storm!
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So, i havent updated in a while, but i had an AMAZING weekend. Maybe more details about that later...well hopefully :)
My papa is doing good. He was moved off the critical list because he is now talking. I hope he makes it and can come home soon. I miss him so much. I miss my nana too. She is being so strong, shes like a rock. I cant belive how well shes handling it. Somedays when we talk to her she is a little emotional, but thats expected. Shes down there with none of her close family. She has been staying with her friend Elle, because she cant go back to their place. I think its because she doesnt want to be there without Papa. I sent him gifts and cards today, i told him his chair was waiting for him and he HAS to come home to be in it. On the phone last night to my mom he said he was fighting as hard as her could so he could at least come home and see us. Hes always been a fighter and thats why I love him <3
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[14 Feb 2007|09:45pm] |
Please pray for my papa.
He had two heart atttacks last week and had a stroke today.
He told us that he loved us and basically said goodbye. Please pray for him, the doctors said he does have a chance at living. Please i lived with him my whole life, i cant loose him.
This all happened while he was on vacation in florida, so i cant even see him and say goodbye, please pray that he will make it so i can see him agian.
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[09 Feb 2007|11:25am] |
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I dont even know when the last time I posted was. I apologize but things have been quite hectic in my life. I feel like things for a week spiraled out of control and now, all of a sudden i am gaining everything back agian.
My brithday was one of the best. I didnt have a party or anything, but i got to see most of the people I care about in two days. Wed. my family. My mom came home and I was so happy. However I miss my grandparents. Its so ironic that half the time, when they are home, they drive me absolutly crazy. Like the stay up so late with the TV blasting, and now, i miss that. I miss my nana and her unconditional love she gives everyone, just trying to make people happy. And i miss my papa trying to be all grumpy. but you really know hes a softy on the inside.
On my birthday i hung out with some junkies, not all of them, which i ish i did but its so hard to get all together. But we visited Caitlin and Susan which was good. They are doing well which makes me happy.
Other then that my week has just been a bunch of ups and downs. Hoping that it will turn up for the weekend, and i will get paid, and i will get my new Ipod.
Yea i need a new ipod because freaking american idol have over 1,000 songs on my Itunes already. Stupid Idol :)
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[31 Jan 2007|10:36am] |
So things are getting somewhat better. Me and dani are officially over. Well at least until she moves here next year. Its honestly for the better and both of our decisions. Its almost like a weight being lifted off of both of our shoulders. I know it sounds wicked corny, but we are like best friends and talk everyday. But hey thats what we do.
My papa is doing well. It was such a scare. I honestly didnt sleep for about 3 days. Last night was a good sleep.
Yesterday i also watched idol with some junkies and we went to the olive garden which i dont like but i did it because caitlin and susan like it and they are having surgery next week. When we were leaving me and marissa almost died, or we scared ourselves into thinking we were going too. I have no idea why.
Thats basically whats been going on. Besides me getting pissed at people for practically no reason. Sorry if i have, i apologize.
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[28 Jan 2007|04:04pm] |
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So i know i sad last week was pretty bad, but this week takes the cake (which is ironically the name of some really amazing ice-cream)
Anyways, Monday went to school. Found out that our ballet teacher and modern teacher are no longer going to be teachers at my school because either they had a figth with the director (which everyone knows is true) or there wasnt enough people in the classes (which is bullshit).
what does this mean you ask?
It means that Jessy (thats me) who only needed pedagodgy 2 to graduate, doesnt get to take that class until NEXT SPRING. yea thats right. Pretty much ruined my whole college and transfering plan. Yea thats cool, wait no its not. Totally sucks.
So i was wicked bummed about it. Just bitchy all day. Then tuesday dani and me got in a fight. Totally sucked. We eventually on Wed decided to be on a break. But its a weird break and its hard to explain. So im not even going to bother explaining it.
Thursday i had school, but wed night susan snored and i didnt get a wink of sleep, therefore im never sleeping next to susan ever agian. But i still love her.
Friday wasnt all that bad. I did alot of things for the auctions for Mack, and i got my bracelet that says Hope for Mackenzie, which i will not take off ever. Until shes cured.
Saturday, i cant even explain to you what happened saturday. Basically i was scared for my life. Everything is ok now, it was just the worst day of my life. Thats all i can really say about that.
Then today, what happened today. Well, i found out Jory didnt make top 24, not even top 40, which depresses me. Then we got a call from my nana. My papa had a heart attack so please continue praying for him. I would appreciate it.
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[18 Jan 2007|08:34pm] |
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Please everyone pray for the most amazing, beautiful little girl in the world Mackenzie Johnson. We really need prayers for her. Mack has been fighting lukemia for 3 out of the 4 years of her life. She got treatment and then relapsed in 2005 and got treatment again and relapsed again this month finding out today. We just got word from her parents that they have a real tough decision to make, go through another bone marrow transplant which Mack would have 20% chance of survival, or no treatment and give Mack 3-6 months of life. This is a family that really believes in miracles, with 4 other daughters, the older Lindsey has a 5 major heart conditions that doctors gave her to 3 to live, she is now 11. So please pray for Mack and her family, shes a little angel that shouldnt be leaving the world yet!
So this week is awful. I was in the hospital last night very sick, only coming home to hear about Mack. It makes you really think how luckily you are, yes i was in the hospital last night for some very bad reasons, but this little girl has fought the odds on so many things, not to mention the entire Johnson family.
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[17 Jan 2007|11:36am] |
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Idol last night...made me mad. I dont want to see the bad people! i would much rather everyone who makes the top 24 or maes it to hollywood on the auditions so nothing in the future is biased! Like so many times before, my fave is never shown on the auditions. This year, they might be, who knows? But still they just should show good people, and a couple of bad people, not the other way around!
Anyways, me and dani talked things out and are completely ok now. Its like a big weight lifted off my shoulders. I feel so much better. And i love her so much and its good that we can work things out.
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[16 Jan 2007|12:42pm] |
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I am:
confused
tired
confused
stressed
confused
upset
confused
what am i supposed to think and do? My head and heart are telling me two different things, my head may be wrong but its hard to tell.
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[14 Jan 2007|04:25pm] |
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So the last week has been eventful, in a way.
The begining of the week was bland, boring. Then on friday i started a new company. I love it. I had so much fun, it was so much better then my last. I am so happy they want me and my twin to come back! And everyone was sooooo nice! So im really happy!
Yesterday I went out with the junkies after teaching. We went to berttuccis for allies last dinner before going back to school. Then we went to get our warmups for idol season coming up. Yes we are dorks and got warm ups. But when we travel far for idol, its so hard to keep our outfits in tip top shape, so yea we got like team warmups, plus they are comfy.
Dani and I got in a fight last night too. I hate when we fight but i feel like its a good thing when we do. If you dont argue with the people you love the most then everything will build up, we are definetly working on that. But dont worry, we are completely fine and still totally in love with eachother <3
Tonight Kelly is on reba....so watch it
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[08 Jan 2007|03:05pm] |
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so the last couple of days have been extreamly boring.
Yesterday, my parents forgot to get me shotime, so i had to call and do it. They had m wait on the phone for about 2 hours and then they told me that it would be available at midnight, which is wasnt so im still waiting and calling them back Stupid fios tv.
then we went to marissa to watch zoey 101 with lisa. And shauna brough me a hannah montana singing birthday card. it was amazing.
Lisa was really good on zoey 101, but watching marissa watch her was so funny. I couldnt stop laughing. But overall that was fun.
This morning i decided to get some new music. Now im about to go to dance, and thats pretty much the extent of my day. So exciting.
and im still listening to elavator music on the phone...so exciting
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[06 Jan 2007|12:07pm] |
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So this week has really sucked. My whole family has been sick and just keep giving the same horrible awful cough back and forth. It sucks. I swear i have had this stupid cough for 3 weeks at least.
My Nana and Papa left for florida today. I love them and all, but its so nice to have a break from them. Now I can finally sleep in and fall asleep at night, without having to listen to them. It will be great. Also i get to visit them in florida which is always wonderful. I love clearwater :) I am sure i will start to miss them in a while but for now im enjoying the quiet.
I went to teach today, I love my saturday class. They are so funny. When I was leaving i was parked next to one of the girls in my class and she got so excited and started going "WE ARE PARKED NEXT TO MISS JESSICA" and wouldnt stop waving. It was so adorable.
Speaking of adorable please pray for Mack
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[03 Jan 2007|12:58pm] |
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So the past two days have been boring. Dani leaving was really sad. I hate not being with her, but only half a year left until we can finally be together all the time.
We feel bad because we didn't get to hang out with all the people we wanted too. Especially Ren. Yesterday Alicia ate part of his Christmas present, i was so mad! But i will just get him more snow caps and it will be all good!
Yesterday Alicia and I had a lazy day! We were both sick (cough thanks Jess) and so we watched like 12 hours of Americas Next Top Model. It was a very unproductive day. After that i stretched for like an hour, so i felt better about the day. I hate wasting days.
Jill and Ray came home for the night, its good to see Jill once in a while. I miss her being home, but shes doing so much better and is a much better person now. I am really proud of her. But when I came to the apartment downstairs (we have a guest apartment) there was chesse all over the living room and i remebered o yea this is why we always fought. I know im messy, but she is MESSY
Scott is coming home today so Alicia and I are going out for lunch. Its good when we get to spend time together with no one else, i mean we are twins and she is my best friend. But i miss scott because alicia likes to annoy me too.
and i have to register for classes, and i really dont want too. I dont know what i want to take yet, and i need to get forms for Jazz II and Ballet in Performance II. And thats just a huge proccess.
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